I can’t help if you won’t listen.

If you saw the scars on my heart you’d be suprised I was even alive.

If you saw the scars on my heart you’d be suprised I was even alive.

Short term feelings

I never did anything why should I be under the gun
Why should I take the bullet I wasn’t the one
The one who lied the un greatful soul
But who needs a soul not me I’m done

Through my window

When I feel what I feel,
My discomfort isn’t real,
Who I am what I think,
I lay it down in drying ink,
No matter what I do or say,
It doesn’t matter anyway,
So i’ll take the back seat I’ll let you win,
Let’s get it started let us begin,
You be the driver and I’ll whatch all I wanted pass by,
Through my window I watch what I know die,
So I’ll be passive and put my feelings aside,
Because you’ve already done it a million times.

If I Die Before I Wake… Good

The Things I’ll Never Say

Walking on eggshells this broken glass 

These scars always seem to last

Mental affliction, physical abrasion

But i cant take a pill to numb this sensation 

I’ve tried time and time to remove these scars

But the wounds are still bleeding and I’m out of gauze 

I’ve whipped off the blood I’ve Whipped off the tears 

But my mind wont rest until this wound disappears

When is the pain gone?

I cant let it go its been here too long

Just pretend its alright

But  i cant make my decision tonight

All thats left is the hand i was dealt 

But these cards are too low and I’ve got a tell

The pure frustration that comes to my mind

And I’ve thrown enough away at the time

I knew my mistakes would find me soon 

When I’m all alone to my thoughts in my room

The space i create is what i will destroy 

The happiness that i made as a decoy

When is the pain gone?

I cant let it go its been here too long

Just pretend its alright

But  i cant make my decision tonight

I’ve made up these feelings I’ve made a mistake

Please just forgive me theres nothing to take

I’ve lost my love and my sanity 

And the only one to blame is me

I’m walking on eggshell and making new scars

These are the worst I’ve felt by far

Wrap up the wound and wipe off the blood

Mop up the tears before the world floods

Heartbreaks a gunshot guilt is a stab 

But id rather be bloody then see you all sad

So heres my decision ill live out my lie

Because no one should have to hear me cry

WOW.. I lost a lot of followers… -___-

Let’s play the “Yes or No” game.

You can ask me anything and I’ll answer honestly, but only with yes or no. 

(Source: follow-ieatemokids, via onsevenththought)

Me Inside

For all its worth I’m not as worthless as you would believe I am

I’m not a liar or a cheat or a friendship lover scam

If you looked inside my heart inside my mind inside my tears

A cryptic code would then unfold revealing all my un sung fears

Fears of monsters, fears of beasts, fear of those who wield deceit 

My fears grow wild my fears grow strong my fears move on and i retreat 

My mind is screaming my thoughts are laughing my conscious cold and scared

But tho i wield this troubled mind, your vision seems a bit impaired

I do not reflect the pain these troubled wounds that have all healed

My mind Is scarred but i stand strong and the better person is revealed

Over The Broken Casket

Lets play doctor and ill be the surgeon

Ill cut you wide open to see what’s inside

You’re missing your heart You’re missing your lungs

You can’t Breathe and you’re barely alive

Because living is far from what you do

There’s not a living thing inside of you

You are the shell of a human

Simply an act without a cue

__________________

You wasted your life 

You wasted your time

You wasted your breath taking what was mine

Wearing it down 

But You’re wearing off

A cancerous being you’ve now been cut off

__________________

A monster or frailty and poise is what you are

Just a liar, a con man, a cheat

You’re missing the point and i’m disappointed 

Now lay down and accept defeat

_________________

As we grow

And as we learn

We pick our battles

We take our turns

Being wrong

And being right

But all of this 

Is worth no fight

______________

You wasted your life 

You wasted your time

You wasted your breath taking what was mine

Wearing it down 

But You’re wearing off

A cancerous being you’ve now been cut off

#song  #conner junge  #casket  #broken  #self harm